The specific problem, it seems, is delayed recall. In other words, I can have an entire conversation about something, and then have that person come to me a day or week later to discuss the topic again, and I cannot remember what was said. I can record something on DVR for my son, only to have no recollection of it the next week when I see the TV. I can watch a movie (in this case, The Family Stone), and remark to my husband that I thought it was a good movie and without nudity, only to have him say, "I know. We saw it together in the theater." I've seen that movie before?
I've joked about the problem, but it's actually a pretty big deal. I have to have a handwritten planner in which I write every single solitary thing down, otherwise I fear it will be lost forever. I've been caught in one too many conversations with people in which they appear confused about my lack of recollection of a previous event, conversation, or title of something.
And I never really thought to investigate the problem until today, which is really silly considering that I work in the mental health field. Here's what I found...
Did you know that humans and rodents have trouble with delayed recall when placed under stress-inducing conditions? Their cortisol levels rise and impair their memory capabilities. In one study, rats were placed in a shock box. Then a week later, they had to complete a memory task. But for some rats, they were shown the shock box again as a reminder. They weren't shocked again, just shown the box. And those rats who saw a reminder of their trauma, if you will, were significantly more likely to rely on less efficient memory strategies.
I was hooked on reading this research today, because it suggests that perhaps the effects of betrayal trauma and the resulting high levels of stress hormones flowing through my body may be to blame for my embarrassing memory problems as of late. That I may not in fact just be going insane. I'm actually dealing with an impaired neural system as a result of being exposed to the shock box one too many times.
Anyone else have mysterious and embarrassing memory problems? Been exposed to the shock box one too many times?
Me too! Except it has been years in my case. But, then I've also known of my husband's porn "problem" for 13 years.
ReplyDeleteVery interesting! Thanks for sharing!
YES!! I'm so glad I read this today because seriously, I think I'm going crazy sometimes. My memory problems aren't quite the same as yours...I can remember having the conversation but not remember what was said or who said what. And I constantly lose stuff at school. I'll make a stack of papers to give to absent students or tests for students to make up, and then it's just gone. I have no idea where it went. I'm currently searching for $30 worth of fabric I bought for the girls in my youth group. Been looking for 6 weeks and can't find it to save my life. Sigh. So there's my memory loss for ya. Thanks for this post!
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